My T has been out of town for the past few weeks and is returning next week. I was doing really well until these last couple of days... I just really miss her. I'm also feeling incredibly sad, so I'm not sure if I just miss her because she's a comfort to me, or if I'm sad because I miss her as an individual. For any of you who have been through the painful attachment work with your T, did you eventually reach a point of "healthy" (not sure if that's the right word) attachment? And if so, what does healthy attachment feel like? Because of how painful this work has been for me, I find myself not reaching out to anyone for support (besides this forum) and I worry that I've lost all ability to attach to anyone. I just don't feel a lot of feelings for anyone anymore (other than empathy) and it's really scaring me because I feel like my attachment styles has gone from one end of the spectrum (insecure/obsessive) to the other (avoidant).
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