At this point in time, my persistence towards long-term goals is either permanently or temporarily halted. All I can give are excuses as to why I'm in this period of uncertainty.

I know behavior exists on a spectrum, but it seems to me that I see people dealing in absolutes every day, everywhere. This disparity is grossly distressing. I'm either persisting or I'm not persisting. I either make excuses for failure, which can suggest not taking responsibility or I acknowledge my failure sans excuses. This seems to be wildly incorrect. I either fail or I succeed. Does partial failure suggest partial success and therefore reductive success? Does partial success suggest partial failure and therefore reductive failure? Have I failed and succeeded, simultaneously? Am I both resilient and not resilient, simultaneously? That is a deafening dualism. This is the conflict between knowing the multi-state property of being and finding myself "forced" to choose either this or either that.

I don't know if it's possible to be either objective or subjective. I can't definitively say from which viewpoint I'm making my self-assessment. I would say I'm using my apperception. Is it even possible to be fully objective? At what point between objective and subjective is a person either the former or the latter?