Justy,
Everyone on this panel is trying so hard to understand you and the problem you are having. Some show it with anger, the others show it with love. That doesn't mean that they disagree with each other. Let's just agree to disagree now. No one ever knows what we go through and that goes for everyone who has issues or problems, whether they be big or small, health or relationship wise. No one walks in our shoes and no one can say "OH...I know what you are going through! NO THEY DON'T! In every topic on this board no one knows what any member goes through BUT they are here to get help and to give help. We know who is genuine and who is not and I would have to say that there is only one issue that sends up a red flag. That's the fact that some messages don't even get a viewing and that's sad. When a member comes on this site for help or to vent and no one responds, that just makes the matter even worse. Then the member who is crying out for help just leaves with the same problem. Justy, I think you know what's in your heart and what the right thing to do. You have to come to grips with your life and if it is worth living. I say no one's life should be taken but again, I am not judging. I don't know what happened to you to have your life take this turn but what ever it is, I hope your life will have some changes for the better. Remember one thing. You have friends here and they care very much for you as I do. God bless you, Justy!

AnAngel