Last week I had a sui episode where I thought about it intensely. Then I got really down. Today I'm still down. I'm trying to keep it together for work. I normally don't show emotions. I don't know what to do. I contacted my pdoc and they recommend partial hospitalization but so far nothing is happening! I feel very frustrated with all medical professions no one knows anything!! I know what to do and how to help but I don't feel like doing anything! I know I'm sabotaging myself but can't get away from it. Help!