I'm sorry to hear your feeling this way! It sounds like a case of psychosis to me. I lived in psychosis for 2 years however, I thought everything I was seeing and hearing was real, it took my husband and parents to help me understand I was living in an altered reality. I am so thankful I found a great pdoc who has helped me very much with medication management. I still have break through on occasion but it's less frequent now. Just last night I swore the stars were drones surrounding me, I still think my neighbors watch me, but the Feds have been wiped away with the meds! Glad your going to the doctor!