Just wanted to pop in and say Im still hanging on. I think part of me is just in plain shock maybe?

Im so angry about it all. I know there was nothing I could have done to stop things from happening.

I want to forgive this person.. but I just cant at this point. Maybe that makes me a horrible person. But I sit here on my computer and look up to see her bedroom door and the horror of that day is screaming at me. I will never get past finding her and having to clean up the aftermath.

I dont have to ability to ask how everyone is doing by name. Know I love you all and to please be kind to yourself.