Whatever you do, DON'T stop your meds. That has never gone well for you and it won't if you try it yet again. You're absolutely right, your insurance will deny you the dissolvable meds if they discover you've been non-compliant, and then you'd have to start all over again. It's not worth it.

I'm sorry you're still having a lot of paranoia. Frankly, I don't think you're adequately medicated, being on only two drugs. It takes most of us at least three or four, and some of us are on five or more. There's a lot of room for improvement, and you're lucky you're on a small enough dose of your meds that they can be adjusted upward if need be. I don't know, you may need a different antipsychotic or even another one in addition to the Zyprexa (I've been on two APs for years and have never had a problem).

Of course, I'm not a doctor and can't diagnose or treat you; you need to talk to your pdoc about that. Thinking of you and wishing you the best.