Is that true?

I can't ever change my past, so it will always be on my "record" that I was a loser. No matter what I do, I can't make up for that. I can't go back and make the right decisions and erase the ones that completely ruined my life. No matter how much I apparently "improve", I would always be a loser anyway. I'm just sort of broken in that way. I'll just always be looked down upon by how long it took me to be a fully functional human being. It's just one of the many reasons I avoid trying to make friends and of course my lack of a huge friend circle contributes to me being a loser. Go figure.