Greetings, Christina, you wrote:

"Use every damn coping skill I have and keep throwing them at it until something sticks"

My problem is that when I really get BAD BAD BAD anger, it's impossible for me to even THINK about a coping skill. I try one or two, but they don't work. I have lists and more lists.
You also wrote: "I do have a bag of past Psych meds that I can use to hopefully knock out an episode sooner rather than later." I have some old ones, too, but how do you use yours? I'm not sure adding a med will help. And anyway, from what I understand, going on and off meds whenever we want to, can cause brain damage. Am I missing something here -- no pun intended, by the way.