I had what almost felt like a panic attack today and started crying at work. Luckily, I wasn't around anyone. I'm hoping that I am cut out for this job and to keep working in general. It's frustrating that my meds are only doing so much, and I think I've been having some rapid cycling. I look at all of the things that I spent in the past month, and I'm horrified. I am looking for the receipts to certain things, but can't find all of them. It makes me feel so irresponsible.