So I have become acutely aware of myself and that others are scrutinising me, my employers would rather not admit they have anything to do with my current MH you see. So the other day I decided to paint my nails, something I usually do when Im usual me. I also pt on my usual makeup and sprayed perfume as I was going out into the world for more than a lounge pant run to the shops for cola and chocolate. I realised that by looking tidy I might look like Im a fake. A phoney. Coz of course I must be.

Does anyone else feel like this? Like they will be classed as a faker coz they manage to look clean and even, god forbid, they laugh now and again.

Ranty but valid thoughts from me. Anyone to add?