No, my doctor and psychiatrist haven't seen the house. They've never asked to, but as I said, I'd get in trouble with my boyfriend if I let anyone see.

Yes, the things I have paid for or that have been gifted me belong to me. The house belongs to my boyfriend. That doesn't mean he owns everything in it.

I've been looking into vocational rehab, but I don't think I can handle it. My OCD doesn't deal well with schools. What I want to do is write. That's the whole idea of my boyfriend being my room clean so I can use my computer again and submit my work.

My boyfriend is a computer programmer. He has trouble paying bills lately (well, he's late, usually) but keeps going on his trips. He tells me this next trip (like all trips) are "non-negotiable." His trips usually range from a weekend to 10 days. During September through November, he goes every weekend to watch marching bands. Then, he goes away for 10 days for Thanksgiving. After that, I don't think there's any until June or July, unless something of interest comes up.