I am absolutely losing it today. My mind is racing and I feel like I'm freaking out. I just left another message for my pnurse. I don't think she's even in on fridays but it was worth a shot. I think I'm going hypomanic but it's not a good kind. I feel like I don't even know where I am. My mind is going a hundred miles an hour. I'm trying to breathe and tell myself I'm ok. I appear normal thank god. I don't know what to do if she doesn't call back. I need some klonopin so I can sleep. I only slept four hours last night. If I continue not sleeping I will get worse. I'm going to take the latuda as soon as I can eat something. Maybe it will put a lid on this or maybe it will make me worse but I have no other options.

**** med changes, this is exactly what I was afraid was going to happen. I've been stable for a year and a half and I do NOT need an episode right now.