I'm doing a little better today, no voices or shadow people. I do keep smelling odd smells though, like food being cooked when nobody is in the kitchen. Other than that I'm still pretty depressed. I'm worried cause my psychotic symptoms seem to be coming back .. which usually mean hospitalization for me, so my anxiety is through the roof. I want to start therapy to help me work through the flash-backs I keep having of my past sexual abuse that went on. as well as the violence I saw while little... but I'm scared they will want to report it. I don't want to report anything which is why I don't say anything. But I plan on finally bringing it up to my doctor so I can get a referral for a therapist. It's been a rough few months and I've stayed quiet the whole time, it's time to speak up though. So wish me luck, hopefully I don't have to go IP.