I have attachment issues and have seen a therapist for quite some time. So last week, on session day, I thought I would try to take a day off to see how I did and so I could do something else. So, I did this no problem. I actually felt good. The rest of the week, I felt a little difficulty a few times but it was manageable.

So, I saw him this Wed. and I actually had to text him asking if things were ok between us because I had Post Therapy Session Anxiety (PTSA). It felt so much like progress and now it just all feels like too much. It's like I'm not allowed to feel better because it triggers me to be terrified of losing T.

I feel SO stupid about how I feel. I feel so ashamed and absurd.