Hmm--did you get the emotionally disordered/ borderline diagnosis while going to marriage therapy (where your H was probably feeling like you were the problem?) plus your mom was playing head games with you at the time. Also, my diagnoses may have been more extreme if I told my psychiatrist and/or therapist every single crazy thought I had. These medical professionals are creating a sort of record/picture of us. After my attempt (resulting in going inpatient) I had a healthy amount of fear about acting in a way that could give anyone the ability to take away my rights. When you go to your therapist/doctors, you should emphasize that you really have things together and are dealing with life calmly.....