Just realized something new about myself this week. I would rather be fired than quit.

I am pathologically loyal and committed. The company I work for is as dysfunctional as they get and it shows in their bottom line. I have been waging a one person war to keep it afloat. On Thursday, I asked if they would please fire me. I was as shocked as they were. They asked me why and I told them:

The owner is trying and failing to manage this company. He has no work experience and even less management experience. The company runs on unleaded nepotism, incompetence, and illegal business practices. It is the most hostile work environment I have ever had the displeasure of working in and the only reason that I am still around is because I feel like it would fall apart if I left because I would have to take my ten fingers and toes that are plugging up holes in the dam with me. You gave me a job when I desperately needed one so I feel compelled to stay out of loyalty but would love to be released without guilt. Firing me would do that.

They denied my request and promised me that we would have a meeting with the rest of senior management from every department on Friday and sort everything out. Turns out they had no time for the meeting. They did have time for a three and a half hour lunch at the casino down the street though. I am crafting my resignation letter today.

Interesting revelation about myself though...