How could I not care what people think? If people don't like me (or like other people more) for whatever reason, I don't get/keep jobs, gigs, and friends. I don't remember if I mentioned it on this thread, but being myself has lost me friends.

My last therapist couldn't understand me and has broken my trust for therapists. I'm not sure I'd find one that wasn't invalidating or rejecting. The only good one I've ever had was a student and that was only for a limited time. Besides, unless I go to a student therapist, I'd have to wait to see if I'll have insurance for the rest of the year. And even then, not knowing what my financial situation is going to be, I don't know if I can even fill out the paperwork to get a reduced rate.h

I really wish I could go to someone who could assess me for HFA/Asperger's, personality disorders etc. Someone who knows what they're doing, particularly with the first and will work with me more than one session to really give me an informed opinion. The only one qualified in the area is someone who is aligned with a particular religion. I don't want anything to do with a specific religion in the context of treatment. And again, not sure how I'd afford yet unless I resolve to continue being dependent.