My routine is simple:
Lock door, open blinds and window, double lock door, turn off light, run to bed, laptop is on youtube, watching something that has no meaning till 3 am, I am half dead by that time anyways, lowers the sound until I can barely just hear it, hope to sleep, doesn't sleep, instead is taken away by the living nightmare that is my psychosis, starts crying, ends crying and starts doing some type of a physical activity, exhausted, head hurts, eyes hurts, whispers and screams are all around, anti-psychotics doesn't work, too harsh, sleeping pills are a no no, have a past with suicidal thoughts, has tolerance to a lot of those pills anyways, so what's the point.. falls asleep at about 5 am, wakes up at 7 because of the elephant in the room.. does an unproductive day, and the cycle begins again... at least now I have homework from my psychiatrist.. now I have to think what kind of an object I am..