Hello!
not being able to open with people has been my problem during my life. I have lost MANY chances to live, and let me drop the regret about the past...
But in the last few years I was able to work something out, and now I can speak to people more easily, somebody even considered me "cool". NOt really the soul of the party, but I'm telling you what was the way to get some improvement. I did it in small steps. First I realized that I coudn't say something, then I would elaborate the phrase, and I was ready to try next time... then I thought about what it felt like, what further step I could take...

Well, people are different, and what worked for me may not work for you. ANyway, I hope to be useful. Let me tell you that I used to see a T regularly, so that will be the right choice for you too.

And last, let me say that all your "reasons to be miserable" are probably due to your pessimist view of the world, not reality. I judge this from your statement of being UGLY...
Now, I am even older than Cyran0 (36) so I suppose I should be even more odd saying this... But that is my verdict: you are PRETTY, even frowning like that!

Seriously, the best of luck!