People seem to like me better when I maintain a certain distance from them....difficult to explain.

Perhaps I become too intense. Perhaps I don't think like other people. Perhaps I'm too...something. Perhaps I seem nice, but then when people get to know me, they think I'm too crazy for them to deal with. Perhaps I have expectations that are too high...and I really shouldn't have ANY expectations. Maybe I'm draining.
I'm so stupid. I'm so messed up.

I don't know. I think, from now on until I die, I had better just keep quiet.