Brilliant research Cyran0!

Kandi, sounds like you're miserable because you don't have the words to talk to others so use the "miserable" as a backup "excuse". I use to do that when I was thoroughly depressed and alone, I knew I needed help so I would call a suicide help line, knowing they'd "do" something about telling me what to do to get help since I couldn't figure it out yourself.

Looks like you have done the misery thing with your best friend so she's had you post here :-) That works fine but I'd start countering some of your negative feelings with positive self talk along the lines Cyran0 has pointed out and figure out some way to include yourself in conversations. If you're in a group "planning" to go/do something just assume, since you're in the group that you're included in the plan! Before you decide people don't like you, make them flat out tell you, unmistakeably, so your own shyness and feelings can't get in your way. Practice saying, "I can come!" or, "I'll see you there" or, "Can someone come by my house and get me?" and other "inclusive" things. It could be, if you're too quiet like you imply, that your friends enjoy you some because you are "restful" and not hogging the spotlight! That's a good thing.