Thanks so much, Frankbtl! It's hard for me to even look back on recent events, where I wish I could have done something different in a certain relationship, but I am just starting to notice that I constantly live in a state of wondering if my friends/people close to me are okay and if they are okay with me. I think this got worse when my best friend (who was like a sister) died a year and a half ago. It's as if I am trying to hold onto people, sometimes at a cost.
That's a good point that by setting boundaries with others, it is something that they can benefit from too, like you said, with money and its value. I notice that my fear of abandonment makes it difficult, which could be why I lose sight of these things. My self-worth is something I need to work on, but it is hard.
Thanks again for your input and for hearing me out! Hugs!