<font color="purple"> I have been looking forward to the next few days for weeks, if not months from now, and things the past few days have just made eveything suck. I was expecting on having a happy time with my grandma on christmas day (who I havn't seen in 3 years) and what happens? She has a heart attack yesterday. She isn't dead- but she'll be in the hospital for awhile, which is very upsetting (and I can only imagine what sort of finacial hardship this will bring everyone because dad is the only person in my family who has/can afford health insurance). And of course, we just HAVE to have freakin tarenchal downpours tonight that wash away all the snow and that I can garntee you in the morning will be just a gigantic coating of ice.

I'm just feeling so damn depressed now. It feels like god just reached down and slapped in in he face and said "HAHA I CAN'T LET YOU ENJOY SOME OF THE FEW THINGS THAT GIVE YOU PLEASURE IN LIFE!"

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