Whenever my symptoms come back, I want to get as far away from the label as possible.

But when everything is ok, I tend to think what it means to be bipolar, and I talk about it alot with people (who are close to me).

Tbh I don't know why I keep focusing on my diagnosis and continuing to research/read about it, it's been 3 years of mostly stability, so it's not really relevant to my life anymore. I'm low key obsessive about it...

Thoughts?