I don't often remember dreams in such clarity. It did hang in my mind yesterday till I wrote about it. It is not a typical one to find meaning in but I think it is related to the fact that these people were nasty to me and I never resolved those angry conflicted feelings so my brain was saying I have to blow them out my head and thoughts not literally but metaphorically, take revenge and forgive and forget them.
I also dreamt at 18 that she raped me, and also her pal big bird did.
I am getting ground down with these vivid nightmares, that are happening because my AP has been cut. I cannot go back to who I used to be, so I will just have to soldier on.