What do you do when you have PTSD, have had it almost 19 years and never received any help or treatment, you need therapy but the therapist who was supposed to help you, who specializes in trauma, won't take you as a patient because they don't think you're ready? I have a lot of questions, I feel like I have emotionally regressed back to when it first happened. I'm terribly stressed with the day to day of living and caring for my kids. But focusing on them keeps me from focusing on the pain. Is it selfish to want to be ? Is it selfish to not want to hurt? Or to not live in fear? Thx for reading.