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Originally Posted by Anastasia~
I have attachment issues and have seen a therapist for quite some time. So last week, on session day, I thought I would try to take a day off to see how I did and so I could do something else. So, I did this no problem. I actually felt good. The rest of the week, I felt a little difficulty a few times but it was manageable.
So, I saw him this Wed. and I actually had to text him asking if things were ok between us because I had Post Therapy Session Anxiety (PTSA). It felt so much like progress and now it just all feels like too much. It's like I'm not allowed to feel better because it triggers me to be terrified of losing T.
I feel SO stupid about how I feel. I feel so ashamed and absurd.  |
I totally understand and identify with your situation. I've been struggling with attachment issues for years, and it's very difficult. Don't feel ashamed or stupid for having conflicted feelings! That's normal, like others have said.
I have seen my T weekly for 7 years except for a brief time of every other week sessions. This month I had to skip a session and now she's been on vacation so I missed another session. I've been all right, doing okay without her, but part of me wants to email and ask if she's back home. I'm not seeing her until Friday. I miss her terribly but at the same time I don't need her. When I have my next session, I'll probably react like you. I'm not ready to separate from her but we both know I'm getting closer to doing so. T says I'm at the young adult/adult stage. Attachment is tough stuff! Don't be so hard on yourself. You're moving in the right direction. Hugs.