I am sorry it was so destructive for you and your loved ones.

I have been in a great pain and fear from it, but I am alone and end up finding a good company even if it was and still is, sonetimes, scaring. I have íntegrated them as part of my life since i dont have anything else.

It is not wonderful, and if you already have buildt yor life it will change it. It is a doble edge sword, it can end with all you have, or it can change it and you reborn like a fenix.

I guess it depends on what you have, what your enviroment does, how you process the psychosis and if there is a meanig for you or not.

I know for me it would be easier to be normal, but this has made me a unic person because i had space to becaume a buterfly and nobody interrupted me wheb i had to try to self extract blood, it had to happend for me to grow. But if i had had children it would have been horrible for me andthem.

I still have to control this, but sincr I have no way to figth against it, i am along it and try to find something usefull after all the fear and pain.

That is it
I cant figth against
So now thet are my allies.
And i try to find something meaning full
So the pain had a meanig