I hate when people put suicide hotlines on facebook and talk about reaching out to them. Thats not possible. Do they not realize people will be put in psychiatric hospitals if they tell anyone? Its beyond me. Plus the judgement. Its ridiculous. I would never tell anyone i feel that way. Except maybe here. But its like never anyone i personally know.

I hate sitting through the feeling tho. When i get depressed it's different than not wanting to live anymore. The latter is a deeper feeling that eats away at me. Depression for me is just deep sadness but i know it's temporary.