Excuses ... all your " I cant's " are excuses to stay in your stagnant life, a life you are choosing,
a life you feel that people must stop there life and take care of you.

You have nothing to lose by trying anything to get at least a shot at finding happiness.

Do you mind if I ask you you're age ?

Something just doesn't make sense if you are not a very young person.

I agree you need to be on a psych hospital if you really are the way you present to us ...