This is actually a book:
Into the Darkest Places: Early Relational Trauma and Borderline States of Mind by Marcus West - https://www.amazon.com/Into-Darkest-.../dp/178220122X

It has been by far the best trauma book I've read recently that has helped to make a lot of sense in what happens with me in my therapy. I actually found out about this book because my analyst obtained it to his library (I suspect largely because of me). This book has also given me hope that the task I'm tackling in therapy (I grew up with no emotional connection with anyone, with knowing nothing about love and care, by believing that I'm completely alone in the world) is not totally impossible and it is possible to make sense of my trauma.