You need to find the balance between dealing with your emotions and being present , people can only "stuff" emotions for so long before they become really toxic, its a bad choice because it hurts you longer term than living with and dealing with them as they come up, talk to your T about strategies for feeling them and getting over them instead of carrying them long term, it can be done billions do it everyday , people who "stuff" emotions commonly get into chemical or substance abuse problems and then have to kick the substance abuse as well as deal with all those stuffed emotions ,it makes it that much more hard ,because eventually it will color everything you do and sooner or later the legal system will end up involved compounding things .
You are so much better off dealing with things as they come up ,its not always easy but it's not always hard either, with time it will become instinctual to where you have to really think hard about a time you did it differently .

Keep working at , you can do it !
Planning,Perseverance will payoff