Hey everyone, pretty new here and i am just looking for guidance or helpful tips from other current or past sufferers. I am just really frustrated right now. I have been getting treatment for 10+ years now and nothing really seems to get better. I have been on every drug under the sun and yet intrusive thoughts still continue to haunt me. I guess the most frustrating part of this is the fact i was misdiagnosed with bipolar type one about six years ago by an awful psychiatrist (their practice went under, probably should of been a clue). I was treated for OCD before. I guess this psychiatrist decided that seeing me happy one day justified that I had bipolar disorder. So basically i just shelved six years of my life to treating a disorder i didn't even have. Six years of just a comatose state caused by drugs that didn't even help me. Sleeping 12-15 hours a day and not being able to think and putting my life on hold. So i guess you could say i am pissed off. Every psychiatrist afterwards just nodded their head to it, never questioning it. Finally someone said something seemed off and i got off all these medications and i finally see the real me. I am an anxiety riddled mess, with the same constant obsessions that i sought treatment for in the first place. I don't have mood swings or have maniac episodes and i don't have episodes of deep depression anymore. I just have the same constant anxiety that i have been trying to deal with for 10 years. I am just so confused right now. When i was younger my obsessions were mostly about hurting myself/others. Now they have shifted to this new paradigm of health anxiety. Anytime something is wrong with myself i think Oh my god, i am going to die! I get frustrated because it seems ridiculous in my head but i cant push the thoughts out because they are so rampant. Eventually i work myself up enough and have a panic attack. I have had tons of tests done and all have come back negative so i know now that it's all in my head but it doesn't help. I am just a mess right now, i am so reluctant to try new medicine because i never want to be in that comatose state again. But on the other side of the coin i don't want to feel like this. I guess i just want to know what helped you all with moving forward?

I didn't want to make a angry first post but this is just how i am feeling right now. I realize the post is lengthy and I greatly appreciate anyone who reads through the whole mess of it.

Thanks.