I have tried that here (therapist) and it has actually not been helpful. All I got was a chit-chat, so I feel less alone that one hour a week. It's expensive and not worth it.. They can't teach you life skills, they don't even know what your day looks like.
Doesn't matter, I can't live like this. I don't care if I am 100 years old. I can't stay isolated. If I do it doesn't matter whether I work, or even exist. I don't need to go back, I have needs now. I need others' help past 18, so WHAT? Sometimes you need even more help once you are past 18. Do you think that is some magic number?
If I can't keep going, then I can't keep going. Others can ignore it all they wish. It will probably get worse. Just because I can talk about it on a forum does not mean I am not at rock bottom. I have not been treated normally and cannot live like this anymore and can't help myself very much, so someone else must.
I have nowhere else to go than to grandma's just now.. I don't know.
The way she treats me is horrible. There is ZERO responsibility or real care. If you read what she writes to me, you might think she is joking. And she left me lonely all my life, she hardly spoke to me in the house. So I am just to rot, just because someone wasn't bothered? No.