I have a word that I always use for the Christmas holidays...."Bitter-sweet". I think it sums up all the feelings in a nice, neat little package. The holidays are so confusing for so many of us because they dredge up some of the best and worst memories/feelings we have. The music, colors, smells, foods etc. are everywhere. IMPOSSIBLE to get away from. I drove myself crazy for years trying to "decide" whether I was happy or miserable. It would change from minute to minute. Once I decided that it was all "bitter-sweet", it helped me to finally just go with all of the emotions.

Sounds to me like the card you receive falls in the "bitter" category. Toss the card, enjoy your son's first real holiday experiences & don't judge or beat yourself up about any of it. I hope you have a wonderful "bittersweet" holiday Eat Drink Be Merry!!

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