Soliaree, I've been where you are..its very hard to be in the transistion stage..but you will learn that the "real" relationship is so much better than the "fantasy" and one day you will appricate your T never lying to you, even when the truth sometimes isn't want we think we'd prefer, that knowing someone cares enought to be really honest with us means a lot! I find I miss that within my normal circle of aquaintence, I miss that real gut honesty that I get with T, but having got it from T I can "forgive" those that haven't experienced the healing effects I have/am and that most people will only do what they know how to do, in this respect I am grateful for my past life because of what Its led me too or else I'd go through life just living medocrely and never ever escaping lifes delusions..