When I am with T I can be. I can exist. It is just now that I am realizing the magnitude of that.

My mother was not able to validate my existence, so I was not able to be. It is through our mother's reflection that we begin to develop and construct a sense of self. The loss of this reflection, a childhood without mirrors, left me without a solid foundation upon which to build. In fact, it was much worse than that--there was no foundation at all--I thought I had to make it up all by myself.

I am beginning to construct myself now in a holding environment where there is a reflection; a place of safety, love and caring. A place where I am seen. In this relationship I am loved for who I am; and for who I can be.

Whoa.