It's good that you have been in active treatment with a PDoc. I too am scitzoaffective bipolar type. With out my antipsychotic meds I am in chronic psychosis. Although it took me a while to accept that my reality was scewed and I was truly hallucinating. The medication has helped me so much. Have you been struggling with psychosis? Did your doc start you on antipsychotic? Wishing you the best!