Hi Prefab I'm glad you can relate. I can relate to what you said too. I wouldn't say I didn't go down the path. I have tried many times. I just don't usually get as close as you did though I guess. I have volunteered in nursing homes, and I tried to volunteer as a hotline volunteer for a crisis line. But the idea of it overwhelmed me so I never actually went through the training. I do kind of feel like a "failure" too. Though, I know that that is not a compassionate thing to say about myself. And, I would tell YOU to not feel like a failure!

I really also want to explore working with my body and hands. I like moving around a lot too. I wasn't sure about posting my original post at first. Because it felt too soon to do so. I haven't even talked to my therapist about it yet. But, this is where I am right now. If it changes in the future, I'm sure that will be ok too.

Thanks for your encouragement and sharing you story with me.