Holy Mixture of States! Lefty's a mess, and for once, Lefty isn't lying. If LEFCON 0 is "Call 911." and LEFCON 10 is "Call 911.", I'm oscillating between LEFCON 3 and LEFCON 7, and that isn't any fun. I still feel cheated by my unreasonably brief hypomania after nine months of depression, but I'm certain that to those around me my descent feels just fine.

I can accomplish the occasional burst of physical exertion but I often start crying for no apparent reason, a past hypomanic symptom which isn't a good look for a middle-aged man. We are paying someone to complete all the dangerous and unfinished projects that I had planned on addressing once my energy returned, because here you are only allowed one fall. Seroquel gives me bad dreams every single night. I'm going to ask my psychiatrist if there is a road back to the dreams of lithium.



A carved schist head of Gautama Buddha, Gandhara, an ancient kingdom situated in the northwestern region of Pakistan around Peshawar, 3rd-4th century.

As well-illustrated by this image, Gandhara is considered the meeting point of Eastern and Western sculptural styles.