I know what you're saying but that's not something that happens. The more you try to be calm and peaceful, the more the energy can hit you hard. With the symbolism of light and darkness, the eclipse hits my friend's and my charts most where they are light, so that we both get energy of darkness and lack of consciousness. Impossible to change, but hopefully might be tied into the awareness of the lack of lightness, if I try to funnel the energy into my life somehow.