I have an appointment at the VA with a Psychologist or a Social Worker. I am going to see if they will do psycho-therapy with me.

I went to the SATT program here from 2005 to 2012. Substance Abuse Treatment Team. I told them all those years that I had a dissociative disorder and they did nothing for me. You would think one of the mental health professionals could go online and read up on it or just read the Diagnostic and Statistical Manuel of Mental Illness so that they could talk to me about it but they never did. I will not switch in front of them usually and even if I did they would not be able to recognize it as a different personality. (Technically you might call what is happening to me as "fugue states" as opposed to "alter personalities" but it is still a dissociative disorder. I am fairly sure I have full alters along with the fugue states.)

Anyway, I desperately need someone to do therapy with and I am nervous about what they will say. When I first got back into the domiciliary I slept good but the last week or so my grief pain and anxiety have come back. The meds are not helping me and I don't see the pdoc until the 28th. I need some good meds for the next year at least.