Hello Sorrowful12, welcome to PC! I hope you find your time here to be of benefit. Once you have 5 approved posts, you will be able to enter the chat room and talk to fellow members. There is almost always someone online to chat with.

Have you ever been to therapy for these intrusive thoughts? I used to struggle terribly with intrusive thoughts and the only thing that helped me with it was good therapy, particularly exposure therapy. Some medications can help the anxiety-related symptoms, but it won't help you to address the main issue like therapy will.