I did the assignments and got full marks. I don't know how I'm going to pull out the major assignment. I have to research a teaching method and then make a lesson plan that includes all learners. Technically I was supposed to teach this lesson plan but that's not happening. I'm going to use a lesson from the school year and my reflections from that.

I have two hours until I have to leave for my appt. it's just me and my son and I'm freaking out inside but appearing calm on the outside because I don't want to upset my son. He's driving me nuts with his portable fan. I want to grab it and break it but I would never do that.

Can't get the self harm thoughts to go away so I'm going to do what my therapist says and just accept them for what they are. Remind myself the thoughts themselves are unpleasant but can't hurt me.

Basically I'm going to curl up in the fetal position on the couch and not move and concentrate on breathing. I wish I had a weighted blanket. Or someone to cuddle me.

I have half a klonopin left. If I can get up I'll go take that but I really feel so overwhelmed right now I can't get up. I'm so hungry but the thought of food disgusts me. I had another protein shake to hopefully satiate my stomach. I'm basically on a liquid diet. I eat maybe once a day. I've never had this symptom before. Only once waaaaaay back when I was 19. I was on an ensure diet in IP.

I'm just spitballing here to take my mind off things. Don't mind me.