Today...was a stressful day, because I was alone. But I wrote to my friend, and she's going to write back. I went grocery shopping. And I was proactive about finding volunteer work. I feel that my situation, being lonely, is a universal feeling. I also have depression. I'm not gonna beat myself up though. Sometimes I think I use self help, to beat myself up. Because I MUST CHANGE. No. Maybe I'm ok being me.