Oh I have had my moments ,its not all glitter and fun , fortunately I have had some good therapist call me out on my less then productive thinking shall we say , unfortunately chronic disease leads to depression drug and alcohol abuse and suicide ,I am a chronic disease (under pre existing condition in the dictionary it just has my picture).when I initially got diagnosed with ALS even on psych ward I demonstrated an extreme knowledge of all things lethal , they could not turn there back and blink or I was onto my next idea , once I worked that out , it's been life trying to kill me over and over, but life has also taught me not everything is about me , and be there for other people because we all face adversity and heartache from within and without, how's your pharma intake doing ? Make any peace with it yet ? We just all need to remember what they say about gravity ! (LOL)