I drove like a ****ing maniac. I should have had my mom drive me. But I didn't kill myself or anyone else. I feel hopeful that vraylar will work. It's for acute mania and mixed episodes.i took it tonight. She also gave me trazadone for sleep but I can't pick it up till tomorrow. I got Benadryl at the pharmacy to help me sleep tonight.

I'm nervous about having the trazadone around because of the images but if I really feel unsafe I'll give it to my mom. Definitely gonna stay out of the hospital this time, no question.

Vraylar is supposed to work quickly according to my nurse so hopefully by the time I go back on Thursday I will have calmed down. I see my therapist tomorrow so that's good.