I'm trying to look at the responsibility I have made for myself. I can't back out of now. I'm scared but can not show it. My husband thinks I'm fine. He doesn't do well knowing I'm ****ed up. We have 3 days to clean the house and fix the toilet. I have to be happy, outgoing and social for about a week this is to much for me. why can't I be hyper right now. I hate BP stole my life.