I'm not sure what is going to happen. He always lands on his feet. If he gets another job farther away, and I stay here with our son for school, it would not be a bad thing for me. I'm tired of this horrible relationship. Even if it's all my fault (which it''s not) even if I have BPD (do I?), I'd love a reason to be released from this hell. And I know everyone on here is frustrated with me because I don't leave him. I guess I'm codependent... learned helplessness? Lazy? Scared? Confused?